This blog will show you miscellaneous tips. It will include things like beauty, fashion, books, recipes etc. Basically all the things I enjoy doing and feel I can help you with. Just tips and tricks.It will also include just random things that I want to share with you like a article or poem I read somewhere. Even my own work or just about my day. If your not interested then feel free to exit the site.Everybody else enjoy.
New Poem

Sadams Gone For Now

Sadams Gone For Now

In the midst of his lucid dreams

From the battle of his teams

On the lazy ocean frontiers


Fallen brothers

A squashed fly

An intruded sanctuary


Rest peacefully now hes gone



The sea's only gifts are harsh blows and, occasionally, the chance to feel strong. Now, I don't know much about the sea, but I do know that that's the way it is here. And I also know how important it is in life not to necessarily be strong but to feel strong, to measure yourself at least once, to find yourself at least once in the most ancient of human conditions, facing blind, deaf stone alone, with nothing to help you but your own hands and your own head. With todays day and age everyone is pressured to be like each other or the next person on the catalog ,steeping even lower then addicts. Most addicts know there addicted but the "followers" don't even know that its wrong. So I ask a question is it better to be poisoned by this society or better to live in the wild.

So many people live within unhappy circumstances and yet will not take the initiative to change their situation because they are conditioned to a life of security, conformity, and conservatism, all of which may appear to give one peace of mind, but in reality nothing is more dangerous to the adventurous spirit within a man than a secure future. The very basic core of a man's living spirit is his passion for adventure. The joy of life comes from our encounters with new experiences, and hence there is no greater joy than to have an endlessly changing horizon, for each day to have a new and different sun. I believe that homeless people have more fun then the average human being yes they do not have homes and yes most don't have money but they are adventurist and every day is like a new one. What I mean by this is that everyday is the same routine and the same responsibilities and a homeless person has no worries but the basics , food ,water and shelter. He is not exposed to the life of luxury as we are. All we ever want is more and more. I am not to be excluded of course. I too have faults like any other being. But rather than love, than money, than faith, than fame, than fairness... give me truth. But in this society is that even possible. You see If we admit that human life can be ruled by reason, then all possibility of life is destroyed. Surely all Americans have the right to give their money only to those causes which they support. But what kind of society has this created? A society where the ignorant reign. A society where enlightened must hold their tongues. A nation whose politicians must profess half-hearted devotion to an ancient fable or face the disastrous consequences of speaking their true mind.

I believe that it is better to live within the circle of truth. Circle of truth is when you know what you are up against and your "peers" do to and will try everything in their power to stop the unfortunate ways of life. Basically when you know what is beneath the surface. When you know what reality and what is fiction. I have come to a conclusion and that is that based on this essay. That this society is poisoned by lies but you didn't need me to tell you that. I think you might have figured that out already but I fear that it is too late. Beneath this skin there is more than flesh. Beneath this skin there is an idea and ideas are bulletproof. I've heard that ideas can change the world so why not this one. To change the way we think to think as the selfless ones why cant we be like them. No longer to be poisoned by civilization i want to flee, and walk alone upon the land to become lost in the wild.

Disclaimer: I used quotes that are not in quotations because I wanted it to flow.

Fight or Flight


Many soldiers enlist in the army and are rewarded in money and honor. But when you are stop loss you suddenly feel hurt and betrayed by your country. What once was a privileged is now a burden. You see stop loss is when you fulfill your time in war and the army needs more soldiers so they extend your time in the army. Soldiers feel trapped and miss their families dearly. So what do they do ? Either they fight or they flight.

When someone talks about the quote "Fight or Flight" it either means you'll stay and fight this battle or flight , you'll run from this battle. This "response" is an answer to stress believe it or not. When one is stressed you ask yourself fight or flight (Adrenaline). But in this case it means the complete opposite. What I'm asking here is not if you'll fight for your country because technically you already did. I feel any more then that is not fair. It's validating your contract and ones trust. It really makes people question the government and how sick and twisted their minds really are. There is a fine line between duty and favors. What a soldier dose is not a duty it's a favor. What I'm asking here is will you stand up for yourself and for your family and "flight". Many soldiers feel violated so they do what they have to do to get away from this. They run , they try to escape from the army to go home as they were once promised. Some decided to fight and stay with the army while all their friends go on home. You are left behind either to live or to die. So now were left with a question. Who is right in this argument and who is wrong. Are the soldiers right for staying and being loyal to their country and military commander. Or are the people who run to escape the burdens of war right?

Really there is no right and no wrong. Many might feel that the people who run are being arrogant . Some feel that the government is selfish and disloyal. Some feel that it's an obligation to serve. Some feel its an honor. Everybody has opinions and everyone does what they think is necessary. I believe that ,even though you put in their own two cents , that soldier couldn't care less and will do everything in his power to protect himself and his family.

Hey Guys
So this is one of my book reviews and I'm reviewing a classic called Pride and Prejudice by Jane Austen I have to start off by saying that the book was slightly difficult to understand because of the wording but once you get into it, it justs come naturally. I really recommend reading it it's such a brilliant book. The way Mr.Darcy just changes throught out the book is so inspiring. He turns out to be a round character rather then a flat one which is expected of him. Jane Austen delivered an amazing story and should be and is commended by it.
Hey Guys
So I haven't got the video up yet but I'm working on it. I decided to get highlights and as soon as I get them I'll show them to you. Any way I just wanted to make up for the delayed video so here is one of my short poems I wrote, and reply with honest opinions.


Breathing like star struck

Shrieks came and left like gasping

Chills ran down my back

New Song
This is a song I wrote in the summer and it was based on a song from one of my favorite bands, can anyone guess, leave a comment and tell me if you do.

The scary thoughts I hear
Have gone for the day
Some peace at last
Nothing can disturb but....

G-d's tears are dripping on my heart
Because this guilt just won't part
And no matter how I pray
This feeling still remains the same

The fog in my bathroom mirror
Are like endless days
Foggy and misleading until
You clean up your view

You see it in her eyes
Why don't you point out the lies
And no matter how she cries
You remain unsatisfied

G-d's tears are dripping on my heart
Because this guilt just won't part
And no matter how I pray
This feeling still remains the same

G-d must be crying here
G-d must be waiting here
Cause the guilt, the guilt's alive 2x

Your so approachable
I cant even speak
So I'll show you the beauty of a lesson well learned

G-d's tears are dripping on my heart
Because this guilt just won't part
And no matter how i pray
This feeling still remains the same

G-d's tears are dripping on my heart
Because this guilt just won't part
And no matter how i pray
This feeling still remains the same
Long Time No See/Update
Hello lovelies
first I just want to start off saying that I'm really sorry that I haven't been on in such a long time b/c I have been super busy and had nothing to talk about. Well now I'm back and in the next 2-5 weeks I'll have my skin care routine up. Now I said that I just do w.e I'm in the mood for, stuff that I know in my small amount of knowledge that I have. One video or blog post will be a recipe then next a skin care video then next a make up tutorial, a study tip, a book review, tips on how to write, tips on how to accessorize, hair care, hair styles, outfits, writings that I've written and want to share. Anything like that so give me a request if you have any at www. youtube.com/f9tfan . Thank you and have a good one.
Hey guys
So I decided o share some of the recipes i made today.
1. Tuna Salad - You'll need: 6 oz of can tuna
1/2 cup of canned corn
2 tablespoons of mayo
1/2 teaspoon of mustard
2 teaspoons of lemon juice
dash of salt and pepper
Open the tuna and strain it(it will make around 4 oz drained), do the same with the corn. Mix the two together and add the mustard mayo and lemon juice. Mix well and season with salt and pepper. It will serve 4 people and each serving is 122 calories. Enjoy.


Hello Lovelies
todays blog is not about my day and its not a tutorial or anything like that its for a special a friend. I want to say thank you to my best friend Chana. She's always there for me and knows exactly what to say. When the tears wont stop she knows just what to say to make me remember how good i really have it. I've been going through a really tough time and today was the worst news I have ever heard in my whole life and she was there to pick up the pieces. So thank you for being there for me and when i felt alone and hurt you comforted me and told me it was going to be o.k when we both knew deep inside that it wasn't. I love you so very much and i hope i can repay the favor one day.
Hey guys so I am finally ready to post more videos on youtube and thought I share some ideas with you. I've done videos before but now I'm going to do different types of videos like tutorials. Here are the ideas: Showing you how to cook a couple of my recipes , reviewing books that I read and I think are worth reading , playing guitar , creating looks, etc. Now I'm not claiming to be a guru because I'm not that into fashion at least I don't show that I am but everyone's entitled to an opinion and I want to share mine with whoever wants to listen. I don't really care if people see this and be like oh she's not really like that she's a fake, she's copying people because I'm doing it because I think it's fun and it's for ppl who wanna watch and if you don't wanna watch then don't ,no ones shoving it down your throat. Sorry that was a little intense but I hate people who post nasty comments and who are haters. Other then that I watched the ugly truth today it was a great movie very funny. So I'll talk you soon and have a great day. And I almost forgot if any of you have any request to either check out a book or check out your recipe or a product just message me in my inbox at youtube it's F9tfan.

new song
Hey guys I hope your good and enjoying your summer. Well I had a slow day today and at around 12 am I wrote a song and it was the second song I wrote on my guitar. The first song I wrote I copied a tune from a unknown band and the second I wrote by myself, tune and everything. It took 10 min and I still have to finalize it and I love it and I'm so proud of it. I was actually on the computer and I was reading a friends post and this whole chorus just came in my head it was so weird so then I started singing the chorus and then I realized who I was singing about I never noticed  bec I was just singing this chorus for 2  min and then I start singing  about our time  together and before I knew it the whole song was about this person I didn't write it down just recorded it and I still have to fix some lyrics and finalize it. bec I just sang what was in my heart like I was talking to that person on the phone and the words poured out and then I listened to it and I'm like wow this is a good song. I really want to record it again and post it on youtube but the thing is I have a horrible voice like horrendous so I think I'll only post the lyrics. So look out this whole week for it and I'll post it. 

My Day.
Hey guys I just wanted to tell you about my day. Well it started out with me waking up and being bored and then me worrying about my SAT's. Now i have to go to my cousins house to tutor them. i am so exhausted and the weather is so icky. It's humid and it's raining. I still have to buy the kaplan 2010 version and i have to record elvis and annbelle i am so exited. i'm gonna start posting videos on youtube again and im gonna try to keep it as least boring as possible. I'm gonna be posting vidoes about stuff that nobody really cares about but still i think its fun.So any request just message me on youtube. www.youtube.com/f9tfan and enjoy your day. 

July 21 2009
Todays my first day with a blog and so far it's great. I am exhausted tomorrow is my aunts birthday and we will probably have a party. i just came back form my cousins house we just had language classes with my brother Abram and my 2 cousins. Everybody check out dsk jewlery and their 3rd giveaway enter and win. dskjewelry.blogspot.com and enjoy.
  • About Me

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    NYC, New York, United States
    My name is Nana. I was born in the soviet union and raised in New York. I love books and music. I play guitar and I love to act. I love soccer my favorite team is Liverpool. my favorite movie is into the wild. I love to write. Enjoy.



    Favorite Shows

    • Vampire Diaries
    • Grey's Anatomy
    • The Biggest Loser
    • Teen Mom
    • Gossip Girl
    • One Tree Hill
    • The Nanny
    • Fresh Prince of Bel-Air
    • George Lopez
    • Live with Regis and Kelly
    • Montecristo

    What's Your Obsession?

    Me At Beach Wedding

    Me At Beach Wedding

    Favorite Books

    • Atonement by Ian McEwan
    • Harry Potter 1-7 by J.K Rowling
    • Lucas by Kevin Brooks
    • P.S I love you by Cecilia Ahern
    • The Truth About Forever by Sarah Dessen
    • The Notebook by Nicholas Sparks
    • The Twilight Saga by Stephanie Meyer
    • Purity Of Speech
    • Someone Like You by Sarah Dessen
    • Sisterhood Of The Traveling pants 1-4 by Ann Brashares
    • A Walk To Remember by Nicholas Sparks
    • That Summer by Sarah Dessen
    • The Poison Apples by Lily Archer
    • Dreamland by Sarah Dessen
    • Dark Lover By J.R Ward
    • Lover Eternal by J.R Ward
    • Lover Awakened by J.R Ward
    • Lover Revealed By J.R Ward
    • Lover Unbound by J.R Ward
    • Lover Enshrined by J.R Ward
    • War and Peace by Lev Tolstoy
    • This Lullaby by Sarah Dessen
    • Just Listen by Sarah Dessen
    • The Lock and Key by Sarah Dessen
    • Rosie Dunne by Cecilia Ahern
    • Grey's Anatomy:The Insiders Guide
    • Dear John by Nicholas Sparks
    • Lush by Natasha Friend
    • It's Kind of a Funny Story by Ned Vizzini
    • Behind The Ice Curtain by Dina Gable